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Saturday, February 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 20:17:04 GMT

Ok, quick update. only reason im talking now is cos voyager isnt on channel 5, ie. free tiem, lol. school is so busy, as is my obsession with project zero (awesome game), and keeping up with tv, lol.

but i miss u all. its been so bad i barely even check my emails or go on my messengers (i dont have aim for now cos im exchanging hard drives temporarily while the other get sfixed).

dunno when im gonna be as active online as i used to be. i mean i still download like gazillions, but thats about it, lol. also, mondays, thusrsdays and saturdays are times when getting online to do all aforementioned stuff is useless cos i have little time of that day.

ok, anyway, tiffany, zack, jody, keaira, katy, britt etc... i love u guys. seeya later xxx

Saturday, February 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Feb 2006 19:46:13 GMT

So Randomso randomtheytheyve never been done before! 40 questions to amaze and frighten you!
~By Survey______mania~

1) Have you ever had a toy tractor fall onto your head?:: Not yet, but anythings possible
2) Ever thrown CDs at someone cause you didnt like the CD?:: .... wouldnt do that, lol. don't buy cds i dont like so, lol.
3) Have you ever dared someone to eat paper?:: nope
4) Have you ever considered the guitar a weapon?:: oh yeah, i believe some disney cartoons even proved it. i think disney anyway....
5) Are alarm clocks your worst enemy, prone to deprive you of sleep?:: no, the worst enemy is the cold, cos i cant get up without saying "fucking hell its freezing"
6) Whats something strange youve done in the past three days?:: ... i am the epitomy of strange, pick something, lol.
7) Caffine is the ultimate anti-drug right?:: nah
8) Are you strangley attracted to bright lights?:: if the moon counts, god yes!
9) Have you ever ate food that fell onto the floor?:: yeah, because i use the 30 second rule, lol. oh and then blow on it.
10) Do you find yourself constantly undressing the opposite sex in your mind?:: same sex actually, but yes, everyday! lol.
11) To you enjoy listening to the sound the mouse makes when it clicks?:: better than the noise my computer fan makes, lol.
12) Have you ever taken someones shoe and smelled it?:: i think i have probably lol
13) Have you ever slept in a doorway?:: no, but its smart. protect u from hurricanes.
14) Do you have a fear of jumping down a flight of stairs and dying?:: nope, lol.
15) Have you ever done anything strange while sleepwalking?:: depends if i sleepwalk. when im awake, i do anything strange, lol.
16) Do you have an obsessive desire to chase people?:: nah, more like kiss people. or at least stroke their legs.
17) Do you enjoy randomly going into other lanugauges while talking?:: i only use other languages when singing to myself, trying to learn them or when andi and me have a little deutschsprechen.
18) Do you have any secret rooms in your room?:: *hides porn* no no no no no....
19) Do you like to remove the binding from spiral notebooks then put them back in?:: no, cos IT DOESNT WORK! ITS ALL A SCAM DONT DO IT!!! lol.
20) Did you ever staple your hand on purpose as a child?:: noooo, i may have been a stupid embarrasing twat as a child, but i wasn't dumb!
21) Have you ever seen a bug other than a fly in a restaurant?:: do cockroaches count?
22) Did you ever get into a tye-dye fad?:: tye-dye? obviously no, lol.
23) Miss dinner cause you were playing video games?:: unfortunately no... mum usually shouts and i obey just to avoid a scene.
24) Have you ever smashed a bug with a book?:: probably
25) How far is the nearest traffic light from your house?:: dunno actually, lol.

26) Whats the weirdest thing youve ever found in your bed?:: me

27) Do you read in the bathroom?:: if im at my aunts house, its a commandment to read the garfield comics whilst doing a #2.
28) Have you ever wished you had your own theme song?:: nah, unless its a really long one, cos im all about everything, action, drama, love, heartbreak, suspence, etc....
29) Are you picky about coathangers?:: no. unless they're pink, then its my obligation to be picky as a fag. lol.
30) Are you a perfectionist?:: more like OCD. lol.
31) What was something very random that you thought about today?:: i cant remember them all, lol. i just went doolally. usually happens when im on my own talking to myself, lol.
32) What is the scariest Halloween costume that you have ever worn?:: zombie? lol.
33) The most awesome thing you have ever found at a yard sale?:: buffy cards, roflmao.
34) Have you ever been forced to do community service as service for a crime?:: not yet, lol. when america bans homosexuality again, thats when im screwed, lol.
35) When you were a kid, did you write your name on your toys, shoes, clothes etc?:: r u saying it WASNT necessary?
36) Whats the strangest thing youve ever done in your sleep?:: dream? lol.
37) Strangest ring tone on a cellphone youve ever heard?:: the nokia one. its strange and bad!
38) What is the oddest name youve ever given your pet?::... well if i got name things, i could tell u, but noooo... *rollseyes*

39) Have you ever tried reading a book backwards?::try? i can. (its called manga dearies)
40) What about reading the end before the beginning?:: i did that once with a nancy drew book, but only enuff so i still had no clue who killed the whatsit who stole the butler's jewels whilst the butler was having an affair with the celebrity online.

Friday, January 20, 2006

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 17:37:48 GMT

Ok, while i'm here, saw blood brothers in london yesterday, it put me on a depressive streak, but hey, it got my emotions going, must be good, lol.

anyway, i'm so excited, i regisitered on united publishings (UK) and yesasia (global) so i'm on 2 asian culture retail sites, woot! so far, i'm waiting for gravitation volume 1 + themed dvd storage box, move - singles edition limited edition with dvd and every little thing - commonplace with limited edition booklet, lol....

i've got a ton more work to do, reorganise history notes, analyse and interpret a 4 page conversation in english, write down a ton of notes on blood brothers (for the exam, all about response to live theatre), shit,s till need to read over sperry for psychology... then i have work tomorrow (don't wanna go, gah!!! lol, but terianne knows im gay so that should be a hoot), and i have a ton more notes from my other history class... and all i wanna do is blast monsters on parasite eve 2, lol.

btw, went on a xmas shopping spree, waterstones do manga (i've read fake vol1. and happy manie vol 1., both are amazing, lol). spent £190, how good am i? *cough* i have a load of issues to deal with, but for now, focus on not wanting to go to work tomorrow, lol. but put it this way, lincolnshire ain't as good as what i used to think lol.

fianlly i've sent out my xmas letters to some people. i'm so bad at that, lol. ok, now to check my yahoo email... lol. byezxxxx

Sunday, December 25, 2005

Sun, 25 Dec 2005 08:56:51 GMT

To everyone on xanga, merry xmas.

(add tenchi muyo to anime i watch, that is funny! lol). and i got my first anime dvd, i'm so proud (wolf's rain volume 3)

Monday, December 12, 2005

Mon, 12 Dec 2005 18:30:29 GMT

heehee, omg resi evil afterlife is being filmed in japan. omg, this could be good, lol.

anyway, one more week til holidays. when ill probably be stuck doing homework.

where ive been? buys, grrrr. its either watching tv (mum is forcing me to download missed eps... and im gonna have to scrap watching threshold and hex cos ive missed an ep) or doing friggin homework, which is better than missing tv, lol. today, at 9, theres a film with lena olin in. thank god grey's anatomy finished last week, lol.

anyway teas ready gotta be quick. i watch more anime woot! escaflowne, inuyasha (im on ep 12/13), gravitation, sailor moon, shinzo, wolf's rain and fullmetal alchemist. and i sooooo wish my jap cds weren't stupid taiwanese bootlegs. but hey, cheap is cheap. lol.

seeya later. sorry for being away. love u all. tomxxxx

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 20:02:27 GMT

okies, sooo need to update. so need to check my emails as well on yahoo... mel IM SORRY, just the thingy link to emails is the same as the yahoo messenger task on my taskmanager thing, and i have to keep shutting it down cos it slows the puter down (like it isnt slow already).

ok, school sucks and rules. depends. i am gonna fail miserably. hey, my mark is largely based on exams, of course im gonna fucking fail, roflmao. and we are getting a ton of homework. and miss is off. and im a loner in psychology and history cos im probs the only one who actually likes the teachers still, roflmao. but it rules cos theatre studies (nuff sed) and i love history and the subject, despite the homework... and hey, free periods. oh yeah, i work at the girls school library cos our common room at guys school always distracts me (eg. playing cards, parker nicking my cd player or work or pen roflmao). anyway, today i was asked to move cos year 11s were on study leave for the mock GCSEs (damn bitches, we didnt get any) and then i had to take my music out. no idea why, but i cant work without music, lol.

well not only work is taking up my time, but now my mum is making me miss soooo much fricking tv, esp when tv is abundant, new series and repeated series... im having to download it all (and she moans i download too much). well i was pleased she was pissed off at letting me watch my fullmetal alchemist (oh yeah baby, fullmetal alchemist and wolf's rain with english dub on tv WOOT!). as long as she doesnt make me miss programmes i cant download i wont be pissy. but its "im a celebrity get me out of here" season, god help us. speaking of tv, one of my psychology coursework pieces me and sophie are doing is an observation on how homosexuality is presented through a random selection of programmes (in our selected lsit, we've got anime, american shows, one from 1975, a kids show... roflmao). my other coursework was a questionnaire on views of foreign music. need to analyse results, lol.

grrrr, i dont wanna go to work on saturday. lol. i skipped last week cos i woke up 5 minutes before bus was gonna leave (i had to pack my bag and wake up and have breakfast... and the bus stop is 5 mins away) so mum sed to stay in. she said i had the flu to jenny turner, and now i have to convince the scary manager that i had the flu when i sort out my return to work form... and i dont wanna work again, cant be asked, lol. but hey, next week is payday, so i have to, lol.

umm... oh yeah, im resigning from being lost episode editor. when i have more free time, i may tackle the aspect of savagery and human primitiveness of episode 8 again, but i have no f ing time. its spent playing catch up with tv. and then there is the francie fan fiction AND my other projects which have been going overdrive in my mind.

oooh, the plays. well, midsomer nights dream modernised with mrs raeburn is starting after school rehearsals after xmas. the pantomime was postponed due to threat of snow (in lincolnshire HAH! my fucking ass we'll have snow... gloucestershire and cornwall are blanketed and scotland, but lincolnshire had 10 seconds of it *rollseyes*)... but i am not singing sexbomb in an aussie accent anymore (esp. as becky sed it was crap *grumbles*) but its moving to january. and johnny and dead rehearsals postponed cos sir is in hospital for some reason. and our improvised piece in theatre studies is stalling cos there's a huge arugment about one of our cast who is away a lot of the time due to an incurable illness.

and generally? well put it this way, the more extreme feminist i get the better, i should have gone to the girls school from the start, less depression. and i am having problems with some people, severe problems. its that time of the month where i feel i cant do anything right and everyone tells me that in titbits. but hey, i have chocolate, roflmao.

and shit i still have to sort out the NYC stuff, but mum is mooaning cos "she needs to see details" and stuff, god sakes, ive told her what there is, its a legit site, ill give it to her, shut the bloody cow up. she doesnt exactly explain what she wants to see except "if its legit" in laymans terms... and she is still a cow, getting pissy when i ask about the tele... I HAVENT WATCHED IT AS MUCH and shes getting more and more pissed off... and she still hasnt realised theres a problem, like last time when she made me write it down, shows how much she cares.

grrr moaning too much. gotta go, ciao.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Sun, 13 Nov 2005 11:13:28 GMT

where to start.... veronica mars, ep 9, OMG!!! lol. nip/tuck, I KNOW WHO THE CARVER IS and its only ep 4. though i could be wrong, but there are toooooo many coincidences with that guy. hex, hot as usual, and all my tv... well if im allowed to watch it, shit must remember to record oddysey 5 tonite... is all good.

hmmm... im waiting for an email from euro-study-tours. i emailed them inquiring about unsure details regarding UN forum NYC trip. i have the money, mum pointed out to my dads money for me... so if im stuck, i have cash there... school is back, luckily we just got notes... a lot, lol. my lost ep 8 review hasnt advanced much, done 2 paragraphs, lol. i am so behind with lost, lol. and the board dammit. work at somerfields is blah as usual. manager wasnt there tho, so thats good. next week, penny's off, so i am in so much shit, lol. hopefully ill be able to find everything next week. and ill work fast. we're also getting a new line manager, hope she's nice like ian, cos i have stuff, lol.

i am also thinking of starting my own site, if i have time. its just time and resources that are the buggers, lol. speaking of, (i'd do a jpop site, lol), i realised all but 3 of my cds are illegal, lol. they are authentic, lol, but only legal in taiwan. and they dont support the artist. my namie amuro/boa cds are legit tho. hopefully they support the artist. and hopefully, that ebay seller is legit.

oooh, im also in a pantomime for thurs 24th-sat 26th. just the end scene, they needed a guy, and i volunteered (at the girls school). its a surfer dude guy lol. the other 2 plays are going well also.

now for gutys... brian hasnt emailed me back or been online, i scared him off probs, lol. nah, he's busy moving and exams. someone sent me into a right depression on wednesday, cant remember what tho... oh yeah, chris herbert. he knows its me who likes him, and he keeps looking. lol. he doesnt like me, i know it, lol. dont worry, my depression cleared up when i watched romy and michelle's high school reunion. wonder if that got an oscar, its fantastic.

love u guys lots, inc u tiff and uchih. lol. and oki, im on SG1 ep 3.15 i think, lol.

Sunday, October 30, 2005

Sun, 30 Oct 2005 17:34:33 GMT

ok, my posts get longer and longer cos my absences get longer and longer. lol.

ok, i'm supposed to be researching sites for history notes, but i got lots to tell.... i think.

managed to scam dad out of £5.50, and also got £20 from him and 4 soundtracks. though im curious to wonder if hes racist or not. i dont recall him having any black friends, he was involved in a race riot gone bad in the 80s, and he was very arrogant at the bank regarding trying to open up my ISA (both people were coloured, and dad was pissed cos they couldnt open an account without proof of my identity, which was up in lincolnshire). told his new wife's mum im gay, she was fine with. yeah, i have a stepbrother now and dad didnt bother to inform me. (i knew debbie and sam, but i only found out they got married a few weeks ago when i got there). and there were some other issues.

tomorrow, im off to grandparents further south, lol til saturday (i get the day off work, HAH! lol). well, yesterday was a gr8 day at work, manager didnt get in my face, saw lots of shoppers i recognised... miss jeffries, a drama teacher from school, was scared cos eileen announced it was tickle time over the tannoy. she calls code 66 tickle time, very funny, lol. miss was afraid the staff were gonna manhandle people, lmao. and i didnt get told off either, and did more trolleys. but hey, i like days off, lol. hope i get paid for that day though... and should be fun, gonna take my english work and some other stuff down there, possibly a lost review if i watch ep 8 and take notes.

ive been on a downloading spree, limewire works with episodes really quickly, lol. veronica mars is soooo frustrating though, ep 2, and im tearing my hair out, lol. its so good, but i wanna find out the stuff! DONT DO A LOST EPISODE ON ME!!! lol. found more whose line is it anyway, that is soooo awesome, lol. wayne is sooo hot, as is chip, lol. also, ive discovered mika nakashima and luna sea. gr8 artists.

anyway, biggest thing. today, i was watching end of stargate ep (on season 3 ep 12, DAMMIT APOPHIS DIE ALREADY!!! lol), and guess who talks to me? BRIAN!!! as in gay guy brian who hardly is online. we had a gr8 chat, lol. he still owes me pictures, but from the picture i last got (which was 2 years ago lol), he's hot. i have a crush on the guy sorta. hey, he's gay, finally, a crush that can be reciprocated... wait he's aussie! lol. but he's moving back up north with ainslie, so maybe there's more chance to talk

ok, i'm done, ill LEAVE u alone now, lol. oki, i'm still amazed at the gap stargate atlantis and stargate season 3 has left, i mean, all this knowledge about the ancients and stuff... and i struggle cos they mention past episodes ie. seaon 1 or 2, and it's hard to remember. lol. and if it's an emotional episode, i go all schoolgirl crush with daniel and jack, lol. damn u hot straight guys, lol.

may edit in the week, i'll have a lot of time on ym hands. love ya lots. xxxx

Friday, October 14, 2005

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 16:36:23 GMT

THURSDAY - Long time since an update. stupid busy-ness, lol. okies, ill have to order this somehow...

school - i have 3 essays to do. 2 history (i am FUCKING screwed for BOTH of them, i'm gonna have to see teachers for help on how to do an intro and a conclusion [i still dont have a fucking clue after 5 years of essays!!!!] and footnotes, eeek!). the drama one ill complete tomorrow. and then i have all these annoying niggly little bits of homework that never cease to fucking end... and it just adds up to the "i dont wanna do anything" problem. on brighter news, the plays are on go. There was a cast meeting where we went through act 1 at the girls school for midsummer night's dream, awesome, very funny. saw natalie there, and also fiza, not sure how it's spelt, but wow, she is soooo hilarious. just ask her to do a brixton accent she'll be like "what yoo talkin bout?" defining her words, so aweosme!!! lol. also, had a rehearsal today after school for johnny and the dead. i've also been asked to do an end scene for a pantomime at the girls school, i would love to, just depends how important my 5 lines would be, lol. 2 features this year though, that's fricking awesome in theatre studies, we've started our independent project, our group of me, tiffany, olivia (who's trying to seduce me, lol), melanie, louise and becky (who freaks out at everything i do, like she's an angel herself, i'll have to remind her of a certain first time if she looks at me in disgust again, HAH), our group is doing a dark performance, bringing on messages of domestic violence and maybe we could work some reality into it... we'll have to see. english lit, i fell asleep in one lesson. amazingly, i didnt fall asleep after dr pawley's lecture on what's happened so far for the THIRD time (the 3rd was today, cos helen selkirk joined our group). lol. but it's weird, with dr pawley, we deal with animal sex (Othello) and with Mrs Simmons, we deal with incest and necrophilia (wuthering heights, tho only on chapter 17). funny as hell though, lol. oooh, in psychology, at one point, we were talking about what different groups we were in, like football team, family, friends... i was gonna say to miss i was a member of the gay community but i choked up and said certain community. she must know im gay by now, lol, but still. lol.

social - well, it's been bloomin all over the place. i got out of a horrendous depression thanx to sophie actually taking the time to listen AND not immediately brand my taste of music as shit. i went round her house twice, she has awesome pets. lol. and omg, she loves a lot of tv i do can't wait to see her in theatre studies tomorrow, even though she'll probably be with her group studying. my stance on guys is still standing, refusing to socialise with a large bunch of them, ignoring others, evne if i was friends with them last year (esp. paul gale). i will not endure another year of jealousy. still talk to a few tho, namely birge, parker, liam, dempy, and whoever im playing cards with, lol. it's either cheat or 5 card poker (parker refuses to play any other form). but it's usually funny cos parker starts calling everyone gypsies or barry (no idea why), and someone is usually pratting around, lol. my social influence at the girls school is increasing as well. i have gotten to know cate dixon, the bitch who's team whopped our team in school's challenge in year 8! i hated her so much ROFLMAO, but i love her to pieces now. she's dying to see chris herbert anyway, lol. i'm also around bess and jecky (jess and becky, but its funny, lol), cos i sit opposite them in history. and now ive been introduced to libby, and katy duncan (the name rolls off the tongue, its so wrong when dr pawley doesnt say her full name in the register, roflmao) i knew already. anyway, today was amazing, i saw katy and jess, and they sed they were having lunch at weatherspoons. my friend who works there, laura, says that place is sleaford's gay community (she's a lesbian, bless her, lol). so i thought why not prove my theory that all gay guys in lincolnshire arent cute. well i ended up having lunch with libby, jess and becky, katy and cate. cate's just itching me to get laid, libby is just dumbfounded at us all, jess is just clueless and loving it, etc... well me and katy go up to the bar to order (me a chicken, her a meal, but we had a giggle when we realised the table number was 69, roflmao). i was checking out the bartender who was clearly gay and quite cute actually. though i had a serious fit of giggles before that cos everyone was making me laugh, especially cate dixon. i couldnt tell my chris herbert incident yesterday cos everything kept making me giggle, esp just as i was trying to swallow my drink. but omg the weatherspoons has posh toilets. cate and becky were practicing their catwalk routine in the ladies, ROFLMAO, they were doing practice for a fashion show, which would raise money for our prom next year. unfortunately we had to part ways, but me, jess and katy were stuck together throughout eng lit, and then on the train journey back home after after-school rehearsals (they had 42nd street rehearsals at their school). omg, i love that gang, lol.

love - the tim guest thing is really annoying me, i can't help liking him. in other news, chris herbert caught me looking at him yesterday, i passed him on stairs, walked on, then looked when he was looking back at me. DOH! i swear he has put 2 and 2 together and realise im the gay who fancies him. lol. also, there's a guy in our theatre studies group... well the only guy apart from me and dr pawley. lol. i developed a crush on him, despite being told twice he has a long-term girlfriend, lol. u can see i'm reaching out everywhere bigtime, lol. i dunno if he knows, tho kerry;s friend kinda said it in liam's earshot when asking me what the hell i was talking about, lol. new crush, in the form of someone 2 years younger. unfortunately, there's a whole scandal involving my friend dating someone three years younger. i dont see a problem, but everyone's taking the mick, and even miss mills did (i couldnt resist, i gave her this girl's name, the one he told me anyway, she is cruel, but is so funny about it). well, becky dean, jess and katy were disgusted by it, and i didn't give them better impressions (but i assume she thinks its older guys all the way, haha). their reactions were funny, lol. but no, he's very cute. his name is jerry, he's in johnny and the dead with me. jess, a fellow year 10, and me were mock bitchfighting about who got dibs on him, so fricking funny, she talked to him and i started talking to him by making fun of jess seriously, so cute, lol. seems quite shy as well. dunno if he was impressed much with me being camp as hell (couldnt stop doing my country dance i've perfected in theatre studies, roflmao), altho he laughed at ed, who's gay and mucking around camp style as well, so. lol. tho he sed thanks after we exchanged names, weird remark... could be insecurity/self-confidence issue. ah well.

i cant wait for theatre studies tomorrow, gonna be fun! though AS level panics me lots. miss mills says both history teachers aren't impressed by what we're delivering in class, we're not doing enough independent study and other stuff. i've made tons of notes on the 5 powers, and researched individual incidents, but grrrr... i'm just so busy and i just wanna relax. my job takes up the whole of my saturday cos i fall asleep too early (but hey, payday, woo!), and that leaves sunday for my essays. EEEEEEEK!!!!! i can do the essays... i think, just the intro and conclusion that i hate, and the footnotes. shit, i've got so much research to do. and sunday, i lose 2 hours cos of tv. and then the lost reviews.... right, until i've done ALL my fricking essays, i'm putting them on hold. too much stress, esp if parker is gonna be a prat tomorrow. but not only do we have an essay to do over the olidays, but i think we have to do our independent study for psychology during then as well... i'm not gonna get ANY fucking time to myself. i watch tv, but i need to, otherwise id just die from stress, lol.

and stuff the messageboards, i cant do a thing about them. i just wish sydney'd get online fucking more of all people...

wow, life sucks. i need to go to bed, this is depressing me, lol. seeya guys, xxxx lol.

FRIDAY - in theatre studies TODAY, i had to read the part of flute in midsummer night's dream, cos we're reading the play, and not only does flute play thisbe, THE GIRL (in the modernised play the girls school are doing, miss Raeburn typecast me to play flute. she knows im gay, lol. theatre studies, i just let my hair down, it's 90% girl environment, and there are 10 other students, so u can see why. lol.). well, i had the camp voice going. then i had to say something so wrong. katy (same katy) was reading snug/snout, who was playing as a wall, like stone wall. i had to say something along the lines of

Bottom: (as pyramus) O kiss me through the hole of this vile wall (who is snout, ive got the text in front of me)
Flute: (me reading, as thisbe) I kiss the wall's hole, not your lips at all.

i was trying not to laugh, and it was working, then tiffany caved in with laughter first with a "pfffffffft" and noone could not laugh, roflmao! katy was shocked, roflmao. then after more reading, Hippolyta was hoping thisbe's speech wouldn't be long, but she said:

Hippolyta: Methinks she should not use a long one...

she's referring to me here, roflmao. everyone laughs, we laugh further when kerry reading hippolyta mentions she hopes i will be brief, lol. then miss raeburn (who accuses us lot of being her dirtiest minded group yet) tells me through all the laughter "yes tom, i shouldnt use a long one" and she just made it worse, noone could fuckign talk, roflmao. liam, (that liam) made it look like he was gonna walk out, roflmao!!!! well, we all regain our composure, or what's left of it.... read more... then i have a long speech, and i'm reading trying not to giggle and then i look ahead and stop and try and control myself, and everyone suddenly realises why i stopped, cos the next line i had to read was "lovers, make moan," roflmao! miss raeburn is laughing her ass off seriously, and she wouldnt let me skip the line, roflmao. oh god it was fantastic. and then we had the wall walking off stage, we cracked up at that.

oooh, i also need to write what i got from ebay. lets see, my gundam wing song collection, final fantasy (black mages 2, ff7 piano collections ff7 reunion tracks, ffx-2 piano collections), every little thing - commonplace, nami tamaki - make progress (i can't get enough of this, lol), oh my goddess OST, soul calibre OST, Silent Hill OST. i've only opened like 5 of them though, roflmao.

anyway, better start my history homework. sorry bout the long update, but some stuff HAD to be mentioned, lol. theatre studies was just amazing. and our drama presentation is more sorted out. lol. seeya. (awwwwwww, i hope that group has given u less trouble oki).

(also, need to say, ironically, something that happens the nightbefore sorts itself out the next day. one day i was seriously depressed, next day, this guy comes in to talk about mental health lol. didnt work but hey, ironic. and i started an update last night, and today, tiff tells me to update. pushy cow, lol )

Friday, September 30, 2005

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 17:56:52 GMT

hey guys. well overall, its been seriously bad since thursday before last, but cheered up yesterday thankfully. tho drama studies always is a temporary fix, lol.

anyway, season 4 of alias has been licked. episode 21 FINALLY downloaded, and i watched it tuesday i think. then i HAD to watch the finale. those episodes were just so weird! i cant describe them. they were just... omg, alias has definitely compensated for its lack of mass hysteria. and it was so resident evil esque. the finale scared me so frikkin much. 3 times. i wont say in detail, but it was involving nadia and the train, the same scene but later in episode and the end. they were so mean to use that "la di lay di lay" track cos it was anything but happy and it so spooked me out. WAH!!!!! cant believe americans get it today. but ive watched it. finally! still on the puter for mass hysteria effects. and hello, SFX were amazing bar the parachute jump out of the plane. esp the red ball.... and omg mia maestro is fucking fantastic! her coldness just made me shudder, that was NOT nadia... and woo go lena go lena!!! so much to say... the parachute jump INTO svlotska or whatever it was called, no THAT was awesome effects.

wednesday, i auditioned for midsomer's nights dream. miss raeburn made us all laugh by reiterating her comment in a lusting manner "give me a boy!!!" (not many boys auditioned, but i have competition, lol). and she realised she was having one of her dumb days, everyone laughed, lol. (for starters, she told them how to spell my name, and she got it wrong, before that, she asked what school i was from, lol. i was wearing a suit, only carres do that ). during my gym workout, i was mocked at for doing my back extensions. i swear the "stocky" guy who was looking at me weird among the others was the sexist pig that ellie told off in class. well either way, beefhead.

thursday i cheered up cos first i saw mrs whittaker, we had a short but awesome chat, and i havent seen her since year 10, i loved her when she took our biology lessons in year 10. she was a virologist (and u know my fascination with resident evil, lol), but she's teaching at boston college at the mo. then i had my piano lesson, that helped a lot. that was what made me better (i wasnt talking AT ALL in psychology, even the girl next to me who i chat to sometimes but dont know that well asked me if i was ok bless her). we're still on sonatina, i can get through it pretty well, bar a few reiterations of certain phrases. i also brought in my "aria de mezzo caraterre" piece in and i'm learning that. i'm further than i was without her that's for sure, lol. it's awesome. tho fiddly, lol. english lit, we have 2 new girls in our classes, me and andi spoke to one, natasha, amazing redhead, she's very sweet and she apparently is retaking AS eng lit rather than being at university. awww. well she seems awesome. and ellie is refusing to tell me who she likes, dang her

today... where do i start? lol. parker thinks i fancy chris watts HAH! hoye knows it's chris herbert but he's just taking the piss, lol. didn't see chris herbert in our "core" lesson, but ah well. parker made me laugh a couple of times to save me from boredom. went down to girls school afterwards listening to my new Namie Amuro - Style album (it is less poppy and delving into the r n b/hiphop stuff, go Namie! it has pop/evolved pop songs though, and wishing on the same star is so romantic). in theatre studies, we played a bit of hangman before teacher was there, i got both of them, go me! anywayz, andi was moaning at me again cos of my jpop taste, katy going wtf? roflmao. mel and sophie listened though. tho while becky was taking my cd player out my bag roflmao, i did my hangman. katy kept asking if it was japanese, roflmao. my one was a film (resident evil apocalypse) lol. so, first hour, we talked bout our devised pieces. im scared of the course basically, lol. in secnd hour, miss raeburn made us warm up with a dance to Lemar. dont ask, roflmao. the moment she sed we were gonna frolic, i went into camp mode. she even laughed when i rubbed my hands together. she showed us how to do it, then we did the climax of the dance: going across the drama studio, doing this really camp dance. noone could keep a straight face, especially as i was so engrossed into it roflmao! and having fun of course, i wasnt obsessing, but i was loving it and everyone was giggling at the whole dance thing. OHHH!!! THEN! miss made us get in a circle and she made me dance to the track in the middle of the circle. strutting my stuff basically, ROFLMAO! then katy went it, then liv and tiffany, then andi finale'd it with some mock breakdance stuff, SO FUCKIGN FUNNY! lol. then the lesson started. miss told us about her sister's quiet sister in law getting on the table in a lincoln bar and nearly stripping lmao. then she gave us characters for the rest of the scene out of the text. she immediately chose me as lysander (the guy), and sed was cos she wanted a gender code FOR ONCE, roflmao. she knew i would pick a female/fairy role lol. then she chose helena for katy and hermia for andi, then this issue came about height. helena tall (katy short) and hermia/andi the opposite, lol. they accused miss of blatant discrimination roflmao! god we love miss raeburn. u dont wanna know what i am doing as puck in the practical, roflmao.

after that, saw jennie and her friend josh, ruth and aneesha joined later (i met them at the open day for sixth form, lol), we had fun, especially when we went into woolworths. ruth claimed this Bratz doll looked like a transvestite. Jennie then said it looked like ruth, roflmao. after woolworths, went to parker's house to drop off season 1 stargate and the movie, picked up season 2 (seen first 2 episodes, awesome! TAKE THAT COLONEL MAYFAIR!). i spent around 45 mintues having an awesome chat with parker's mum. then i left for somerfields. i met mel ( friend in drama as well as eng lit) and courtney, had fun again sitting outside somerfield car park. courtney said that innuendo was an innuendo, 2 seconds later i recoiled in laughter and horro. dirty mind, mooha mooha mooha, lol. when they had to go, i had my lunch at riverside, listened to utada hikaru - Distance (awesome cd, another from recent ebay splurge). i saw tim come out of the cafe. this is getting too weird (thursday, i was coming out of somerfields failing to find my line manager, i left checking out gavin's HOT ass, and i turned the corner, and tim was there, just as i was finishing off my OMG roflmao. so i laughed and recoiled in horror at what he might have seen, roflmao). eh, i think im still on him, dammit. tho i wish he'd bloody shave lol. he aint getting bearded lady, but u can see he's getting facial hair. anyway, had lunch, went back to somerfields and had an AWESOME chat with anne, who helped me partly with checkouts during work experience. walked round with her (she was off shift) and even packed her bags, but we had an awesome chat. THEN i went to see ian and he sed i could carry on with my workbook. i finished it finally, and i talked to tracy, she sed she'd gladly talk to me if i was down, tho tomorrow is a stressful day for her cos auntie eileen is off. bless, lol. ive just gotta read another booklet and ive done till training, grocery training i still need ian to assess me. mum was shopping whenid finished, waited in car. she sed jayne was a vicious bat and rude(she was on checkouts cos it was really busy), jayne served her. eh, well, mum dont like miss mills. maybe jayne is gruff, but she knows me, she's very nice to me. szhe even smiled today as i walked past. yes she did scare me at first, but i love her now lol. OOOH saw penny on thursday as well, surprised me cos she died her hair black, didnt recognise her, lol.

ok, gotta go. jsut remembered i need to watch grey's anatomy repeats at 10pm. and i've got half an hour til SGA comes on. ive also recorded dawn of the dead and day of the dead and cube 0. im downloaded night of the dead. lol. the dead zone rules, 4400 has started again, hex is just amazing, i knew cassie would protect her baby BUT WOAH!

what else... oh yeah, from ebay, so far i have Namie Amuro - Style, Utada Hikaru - Distance, Boa - Best Of Soul, goldeneye soundtrack... oh, and these 2 cds with 5 japanese music videos. one's namie amuro centred, the other has one with a namie amuro on the other one, utada hikaru - easy breezy and not sure bout the others, watch another time. wonder when my 10 cds from japansound will get here

my singleness policy is going down the plughole, lol. the guy who knows chris herbert knows i fancy him, and as i sed, am back on tim guest. tho with tim, i keep telling myself im better than him. i shouldnt need to cos im a good person already, i can look good sometimes and i dont think anyone in sleaford has my taste so woot me, lol. the adults know me as a respectable person, my galpals know me as someone to talk to, other friends know im there for them and will gladly hang out with them, lol. im smart and dedicated and ambitious, im sociable, im a big romantic at heart, im funny (so people say... nah, i can easily take the mick out of myself and go kinky, lol), im a slut at heart too. i have a job from my work experience to prove im a good person, im open to anything (i will mostly sample music before i diss it, lol) and that includes tv and cultures, i shouldnt have to go on, but yeah, i dont need to say im better than tim, cos im a damn good person. and i know what i want out of life too! and boy am i gonna get, watch out manchester but then again, tim does have the awesome ass (he HAD to put his foot on the table to tie his shoe lace, giving me a view of stretched trousers hugging his fine ass... yes i am deeply saddened by the internet repression tunisia is facing *erm**looks innocent* ).

sister is away til sunday woot! and im going into work tomorrow cant wait for bus and train ride teehee. tho im struggling with finances need to borrow off nick (im paying my music lessons, eek! £109). oooh, and im back in band. despite my viola lesson depressing me on monday, i didnt realise i was ok at third position (we were playing yellow submarine, picked it up pretty quickly. tho i hate G above middle C i can never get it, lol). german on tuesdays is awesome, me and the tape recorded listening or reading keeping me focused on not letting the german slip away, esp as i made such good progress in year 11. apparently, for university, our form tutor has to write our references. and mr haines, the boring hated RE teacher is mine. and i dont want him to know me. thank god i have good teachers, tho im scared miss todd is gonna hate me regarding my viola lessons, lol. she sed she wouldnt, id just have to catch up. but i might have a plan... lol. history is gonna be bad unless i catch up with notes. got half of russia and UK and germany to do notes wise. eeek! by next week. gotta spend whole of sunday on it. and i still have episode 6 of lost to review, its getting there. also continued my fan fiction, got about a page done, not much considering im 15 pages in and this is the 6th chapter. i think it rocks. lol. dedicated to Allison lol.

ok, im done i think, lol. well i had to make up for my absence. again, sorry bout comments. maybe when history is off my back ill start again, lol. seeya guys. Tomxxxx